| Just incase you missed it on Myspace...Christina posted a prayer in a bulletin and it got me thinking of a few things that I'd like to pray, and something moved me to post it here and share it with everyone. Dunno if I'll keep it up, but for now, here it is. Dear God,
Well, what can I really say? You know everything thats in my heart, so it seems a little pointless to actually tell you...but I think it helps ME more than anything. I can't admit that I'm the happiest person around right now....but I know I'm certainly not the least. It's just...confusing. I don't know where I belong or what I'm suppose to be doing. All of my life seems to have been wasted thus far...I haven't really ACCOMPLISHED anything! 17 years is a pretty long time, but what do I have to show for it? Who's life have I really impacted? Nobody's. I just don't matter that much, to anyone or anything.Or atleast thats the way it feels sometimes. But I know in my heart thats not the case. A lot of people don't believe in you, but I do, and I believe that you have a plan for me, no matter how vague it may seem to me at the moment. The future is a scary thing,and I'm not sure what it holds for me....but if I fully trust in you and try my best, I think it'll be alright. You've sent me a few wonderful people to help me along the way, and for them I am sincerely grateful. I can't imagine life without them. Other people may not understand...but I know that you do. Thank you for putting me here, I know there is a good reason for it. I know in my heart that you have a plan and that everything is going as it should. And even if I should die tonight, thank you for the wonderful times I've had and for the peace you have brought me. The gift of life and love is the greatest you can give, and you've certainly given those to me in abundance. I just haven't taken the time to remember that. Where ever I may end up, and what ever may happen, I know that you, if nobody else, will be there with me. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen. |
